Gue mau duit, gue butuh duit

(Article ini dimuat di Majalah Pearl edisi April 2013)

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Siapa sih yg ga mau duit?

Gue mau duit, gue butuh duit. I need money to buy food, susu buat anak gue, baju dll. Kalo ga ada duit, gimana kita bisa beli makan? Gimana kita bisa bayar rent rumah? Apalagi kita berdomisili di Singapore, yang jelas2 cost of livingnya quite high. And rent rumah harganya juga very high.

Sometimes it sounds silly to say or act like we don’t need money because kita anak Tuhan, sepertinya uang itu gimanaaa bgt. Some of us heard the saying ‘money is the root of all evil’, so we think when we say “gue butuh duit! Or gue mau duit!”, orang lain akan anggap kita ‘kurang mencerminkan orang Kristen’.

The idea ‘money is the root of all evil’ is actually taken from the Bible itself. But then, in 1 Timothy 6:10, it was written:

For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil.

Take note of the words, ‘Love of money’ alias lust of money alias greed. When we feel that we never have enough, that’s when all kinds of evil will appear. It actually starts in our heart and thoughts, and it will blossom into our actions.

Karena kita butuh duit, kita jump into any opportunity yang datang, yg ada kemungkinan membawa duit kearah kita. Karena kita kuatir, siapa tau that opportunity will never come again. But sometimes, a good opportunity is good, but it is not God’s.

It happened so many times in our family. Gue, as a wife, punya gaji yg jauh lebih besar dari suami gue. But sebenernya gaji gue pun juga ga gede. Cukuplah buat kebutuhan sehari2. Kerjaan suami gue, sebut aja G, lebih kepelayanan, urusan gereja dan misi dll. Kita menghadapi beberapa kali challenge of faith in our financial. Apalagi sehabis ngelahirin Aiden, our only son (for now hehe). During those times, beberapa kali G dapat tawaran untuk kerja yg lain, selain pekerjaannya yg skarang. Kerja sebagai manager dengan gaji yg lebih besar dari gue. There were times when he really felt the urge to take these jobs. Because as a husband, of coz he wants to provide for his family as a breadwinner, instead of his wife. Apalagi dengan kondisi kita, akan sangat membantu sekali kalo G bisa dapet kerja dengan gaji yg lebih besar. Sebagai laki2 dan seorang suami, siapa sih yg ga tergerak untuk provide for his own family? Dan gue yg harus mengingatkan G about our calling. Gue ga nyalahin G kalau dia feel the urge to get the bigger salary jobs, sebenernya he also knows that’s not God. Yes, those opportunities are good, but they are not God’s. And gue yg harus ngingetin G a few times when these opportunities came, “say, ga usah deh. Remember, itu bukan our calling, not ur calling. So we have to let go.” Sometimes kalo gue yg goyah, gantian G yg ingetin🙂

Kita sudah tau our calling and vision, so we know when those jobs with bigger salary came, we know mereka ga sesuai dengan calling n vision kita. Dan most likely G harus sacrifice his pelayanan etc. So we say no, meskipun G sempet dikejar2, diminta2 untuk ambil the job, karena bosnya suka sama karakternya and they trust him.  Tapi kita stick to our faith in our calling. Sticking to what God has put in our hearts.

As a result, u know what happened? Yes, we were challenged financially. And what happened was, as a response to our decision, God honors our commitment to our faith and calling. We experienced sooooo many miracles! Salah satunya adalah when Aiden was about 1 yr old (skarang dia dah 2 taon lebih). Kita lagi minim duitnya, gue sempet concern gimana mo beli susu Aiden. Eh tiba2 ada kenalan kita yg, out of the blue, nelpon and bilang companynya mao clear stock susu baby mereka. Jadi susu2 ini mau dibagi2in. And this person ga tau susu Aiden merek apa kan, tapi ternyata merek susunya exactly what yg Aiden minum, and ngasihnya ga kira2 lagi, yaitu about 40 kaleng susu!

Yg ibu2 pasti tau deh, susu baby itu harganya mahal bok! Nah ini udah mahal, dikasih 40 kaleng lagi, gratis!! Gue sampe bengong2 liat Tuhan bekerja. Bayangkan, bisa aja Tuhan kepikir bikin miracle lewat beberapa kaleng susu!!

Our most recent miracle is about our home. Pembaca setia blog gue pasti dah tau ceritanya. Gue slama ini di Spore slalu nyewa rumah. Setelah merit, setiap taun kita pindah. Dan kita tinggalnya itu biasanya di HDB flat,government punya gitu. Yg kagak ada fasilitas apa2.Kalo di Spore, ada berbagai tipe: HDB Flat, Apartments, Condo, Landed House. HDB Flat yg paling murah. Tapi murahnya Spore ya tetep aja mahal hehe. Yg paling lengkap fasilitasnya adalah Condo, ada swimming pools, tennis court, badminton, basketball, BBQ, Jacuzzi… macem2 lah.

Nah pas itu kita udah mepet banget harus pindah dalam 7 hari. Dan kita masih belon dapet tempat, karena rental smakin mahal. That makes our choices limited, karena kita harus cari yg sesuai budget. To cut the story short, pas udah mepet2 begini, tiba2 kita ditawarin tinggal di condo dengan harga sewa HDB! Itu miracle bgt! (To read the full story, you can read here ‘Siapa Bilang Itu Mustahil’)

Article ini akan jadi sangattt panjang kalo gue cerita satu2 His miracles for us. Banyak hal yg terjadi ama kita yg bener2 campur tangan Tuhan banget. His supernatural work yg orang laen ga bisa deny it’s Him working in our family.

Gue finally understand that God did all that for us, karena Tuhan honors our commitment and decision, He knows that we rely on him, not on how the world might think of us. Kita decide not to take the other jobs with higher income, knowing that it’s not His calling for us, meskipun kita face financial challenges. When we decide to rely on Him only, we allow Him to work His miracles for us.

Dulu waktu gue mau menikah ama G, ada spiritual leaders yg came to me and said, “Kamu yakin sama dia? Nanti hidupmu akan susah, kamu harus bekerja. Mending kamu dapatin cowo yg udah mapan, dan sepadan statusnya sama kamu” But I know and know that G is the one from God. And throughout our marriage, meskipun kita hadapin financial challenges, gue belajar banyaaakkk banget as a wife, as His servant, gimana Tuhan shapes my character and my attitude about money and giving. Satu hal yg gue kagumi dari G adalah dia punya hati yg giving banget. Gue belajar dari dia banyak soal giving. Gue belajar dari kalimat favoritnya buat our family, “Kita harus belajar to let go. Saat kita tidak mempertahankan, disana kita akan mendapatkan kembali. Bahkan berkali2 lipat”

Gue juga belajar jadi istri yang punya gentle and quiet spirit. Apakah gue merongrong dan menuntut suami untuk ngumpulin duit lebih lagi. Apa gue ngedumel saat ngadepin challenges. And the biggest lesson for me is, ‘When I said I trust Him, how far do I trust Him?” Kita selalu bilang Tuhan is our provider. We have encountered these financial challenges many times, and we always believe that He is our provider. That lesson terus menerus diterapin in our family. And that’s where Tuhan build us, … the next level of faith, every time.

We never regret that kita harus ngalamin ini smua, malah dengan all these that happened, we got to know His character more, and of coz our character. Do we really2 trust Him in financial? And Tuhan juga lebih reveal Himself for us.

This is how God operates in our family. It’s not about the financial challenges, but it’s about how God provides for us many many times in His supernatural ways. To show us how Great HE is.

Sometimes people say that God is great, but we don’t really understand how GREAT He is, sampe kita bener2 ngalamin sendiri dan we have greater peace. Damai sejahtera yang melampaui segala akal manusia. Damai sejahtera yang kita dapetin karena kita trust Him 100%, because we know that HE IS GREAT!!!.

Pasti ada yang nanya2. Nah knapa kita kok mengalami financial challenges, padahal kita melakukan pekerjaan Tuhan dan setia melayani? Bukannya kalo kita pelayanan, cari Tuhan, seek His Kingdom first, kita akan dapat berlimpah2?

There must be something why we experience things from God. Why God allows it to happen to us. There is an eternal divine purpose. More often kita ngeliatnya adalah how we are impacted now by that circumstances, but little that we know, tuhan pake those circumstances buat preparations for our calling and future.

Our calling is mission. That’s why kita di shape seperti ini. Our level of faith. Karena di bidang misi, we can only rely on God. Our mentor often said to us, “memang begini cara Tuhan membangun keluarga dan iman kalian. It’s always about Radical Faith. Nah itu sangat dibutuhin dalam misi.” Yes we can see the pattern in how God builds our family according to His future plan. He wants us, as a family, to learn to trust Him 100%, and Tuhan lagi gunain financial challenges to do that. Nanti pasti ada challenges2 di bidang laennya. But the purpose is the same, how much we trust Him. Karena di bidang misi, trusting God in every area is crucial, and He wants us to learn that way before God sends us lebih lagi di misi.

Another thing is, saat gue as a wife has a bigger salary, I learned the true submission to my husband. And my husband learned true authority over me. Aside from money. Kalo suami punya gaji lebih besar, of coz it’s natural to feel or have more authority over the wife. Nah since keadaan kita terbalik, Tuhan ajarin kita the true meaning of submission and authority. Karena those two udah ke contaminated by the world, those two usually are measured by how much money we have compared to the other person. Liat aja gimana dunia bekerja. Most people yg lebih punya banyak duit bisa easily rule over those who have less.

And I can submit to my husband no matter how much his salary is, because I have financial peace (not total peace yet karena masih dibentuk sih hehe). I have financial peace because I know that our money comes from God, not from my husband, so gue ga pernah nuntut my hubby to provide higher income. So our ‘jabatan’ in our marriage bukan based on money earned. Money doesn’t talk in our relationship as husband and wife, in contrast of the world system.

Setelah mengalami semua ini, we definitely know that God is our provider, We don’t need to worry or bersungut2. That’s what we call financial peace. The total trust in God that Dia yg bakal mencukupi, mau sampe mepeeeettt bgt pun, Dia pasti cukupin. Meskipun our help didn’t come in time pun, kita masih percaya that He is our provider. Knapa sepertinya His help doesn’t come in time? Mungkin karena Tuhan punya rencana lain. And it’s ok with us, karena who can argue with Him what’s the best way for us? He knows better.

Yang penting adalah terus jaga hati dan jaga iman baik2. When we respon dengan baik segala padang gurun yg kita sedang alami, the deliverance is near.

Sebenernya I kinda embrace the financial challenges from God, coz I tasted n saw His miracles, yg slalu lewat bermacam2 cara. Gue excited n looking forward how God will deliver us thru. Deg2an sih, but He never fails to deliver us, in His way.

Tapi apa gue slalu dalam peace in financial? Ga juga. Masih in process. Sometimes sbagai manusia daging, of coz masih ada rasa kuatir dll. I know God will process me even more in this, until I have that total peace in financial. Ga tau kapan, but it will be done.

Tuhan terus memproses sehingga kita bener2 totally dependent on Him in every area.

So, look into your own life. When you have challenges in one or several areas in your life, ask yourself why God allows it happening to you? Most likely, because He wants to shape your character to be more like Jesus. Total trust in His Father.🙂

5 Responses to “Gue mau duit, gue butuh duit”


  1. 1 kezia April 18, 2013 at 1:38 am

    When you have challenges in one or several areas in your life, ask yourself why God allows it happening to you? Most likely, because He wants to shape your character to be more like Jesus. Total trust in His Father.

    setuju ci. setiap kita tuhh tantangan-nya beda2 cos God lbh tau bagian mana dari diri kita yg msh perlu diasah..hehehe. i’m blessed with your faith story ci😀

  2. 3 absensi sidik jari April 29, 2013 at 1:49 pm

    carilah dahulu kerajaan Allah🙂 maka semuanya akan ditambahkan kepadamu! i agree with this article.. keep posting! i feel so blessed🙂

  3. 5 IP Camera April 29, 2013 at 4:53 pm

    artikelnya keren
    Goodluck ya

    salam kenal


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