Hari terindah dalam hidupku

Hari Sabtu dan Minggu kmaren terasa kayak mimpi. Hari Senin setelah gue bangun tidur, rasanya I just came back to reality.. Kalau gue ga liat poto2nya, gue kayak ga percaya that thing actually happened huuhuhuhuhuhu…

Sooooo….. apaa sihhhhh…??? hehehe

AKHIRNYA…..

GUE….

KETEMU…

….OROCHI!!!!!!

Si Cowo Terkeren Sedunia!!!
Sempet interview, poto bareng, pegang2, grepe2, etc etc. HAUEhAUEhUEhUHEAE

Begini ceritanya…

Teamnya Orochi yaitu Endiru pegi ke Spore untuk ikutan EOY 2008. Smacem Cosplay Event.  Sebelum hari H nya, beberapa bulan sebelonnya gue udah kontak mereka secara online, nanya if I can be their official blogger pas mereka disini. Gue nekat aja, padahal ga kenal and setau gue kan mereka bisa dibilang salah satu top Cosplayer Team di Indo. Pernah masuk majalah and tipi segala. Gue pikir wah luar biasa kalo mereka allow me to hang out ama mereka.

Eh ternyata gue jadi kontak2an ama si Pinku, salah satu team membernya hehe.. so then pas mereka jadi kesini, gue seneng banget. So  gue tungguin mereka di event EOY nya di Expo. Tunggu sampe sore ternyata mereka ga dateng2 dan akhirnya dapet sms dari Pinku kalau mereka telat banget nyampe ke Exponya karena beberapa halangan. Yg pertama, ferry Batam mereka telat banget datengnya and then setelah mereka nyampe di Spore, taxi Spore ga ada yg mao ngangkut Orochi karena dia bawa2 pedang!!!!!! WALAOOOOO!!!! Taxi2 Spore pada curiga gitu ngeliat bentuknya jadi mereka ga mao ambil resiko. YAELAHHH!!! Itu pedang juga cuma terbuat dari plastic coba…

Gue udah sedih banget kirain ga bisa liat si Orochi cosplay pake costumenya. But tiba2 si Pinku sms, dia ajak kita ketemu mereka di hotelnya aja and kalo mao, gue bisa ikut mereka Minggunya photo shoot. WAHHHHHH GUE JADI SEMANGAT LAGI LANGSUNG GA PIKIR PANJANG NAIK TAXI KE HOTEL MEREKA. Which is actually mahal banget tuh hehehehe.. tapi kapan lagiii cobaaaaa…

Then sampe dihotelnya, akhirnya gue dibawa ke kamar mereka and I SAW OROCHI IN PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SUENENG BUANGETTTTTTTT!!!!! Dia waktu itu lagi fitting costumenya yg sempet penyok2 because of the travelling. So to cut the story short, akhirnya gue interview2 alias ngobrol ama mereka berempat.

Hmmm.. Orochi emang berkarisma skali, while si Pinku sangat amat ramah hehehe. Si Kenan and David, yg ikutan join gue ketemu mereka aja pada bilang, “wah ci, emang si Orochi itu keren bangetttt!!! berasa gitu karismanya”…hehehe

Abis ngobrol2 janjian buat besok, gue pulang rumah rasanya melayang HAeuhaEuahuehaueaE.. Gue pas malemnya bobo sampe bisa ngimpi Orochi ama Pinku coba!!!

Nah akhirnya Minggu pagi2 tuh jam 9 an, kita ketemuan di Millenia Walk buat poto shoot. Ujan dan becek. Tapi ga papa lah keujanan demi Orochi. Kita poto2nya pun pas ujan gerimis tuh sebenernya. And bisa pas banget. Orochi kan pake costume si Seigfried from Soul Calibur, yg temanya itu water. So bisa pas banget, hari itu ujannya gerimis, jadi costume yg dipake bisa ada keliatan air2nya.. hehehe Tuhan keren juga ya..

Then guess wat… kita disamperin security guard nya sampe 2 kali, diusir dari tempet itu ga tau beberapa kali. Managernya sampe dateng and take down the IC numbernya photographernya, and mao manggil polisi sgala. Gue pas itu malah kerasa seru tuh HAUehAUEhuaHEaE… sampe kepikir “wah anak2 gereja kalo tau gue sampe berurusan dengan polisi hanya karena Orochi, gimana ya?? Seru banget tuh. Kapan lagi!!!” HAUEhAUEhAUHEUAHEe   Pokoknya slama ama Orochi, apa aja gue jabanin, nekat aja deh. Motto gue beberapa hari itu cuma… ‘kapan lagi’ kekekekkekee.

Trus potographernya used some tricks buat hadepin that manager, and akhirnya kita diperbolehin buat poto2 ditempat itu tapi cuma dikasih 15 mins. Padahal sempet ngotot2an loh, but praise God banget finally dikasih.

While the potographer poto2 Orochi, gue juga ikut2an ambil poto and video. And pas ngeliat Orochi pose, gileeeeeeeeeeeeee KUEREN ABISSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! Gue sampe bilang ke Orochi, “aduh gile loe GAGAH BANGET SIH!!!!!” and dia hanya tersenyum….

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!

kekekekkekekekee…

Beneran loh. Pas dia biasa2 aja ga didepan kamera for shooting, dia ya masih keren lah. But when udah didepan kamera, OMG!!!! Langsung faktor kerennya jadi 100000000 kali lipat!!! Bener2 gahar, gagah and asli photogenic!!! Gue sampe klenger ngeliatnya…

Bener kata si Pinku, dia bilang begini:
“Nel, si Orochi malu2 nih kalo dia ga pake costume, malu2 kalo dipoto. Tapi liat deh nanti kalo dia udah pake costume. Udah deh, pede banget!!! Beda banget deh pokoknya kalo udah didepan kamera…”

Hehe.. loe bener Pinku.

Ini poto Orochi yg gue take myself.

GUANTENG BUANGET KANNNNN!!!!!

And below some photos during the day…

Securitynya udah mao manggil polisi buat usir kita yg ngotot ga mao pegi

Karena mukjijat Tuhan akhirnya securitynya malah poto ama Orochi haha

Gue: "OROCHI!!!! Kamu kok guantenggg bangetttt sihhhh!!!!!" *ngiler*

Trus gue kan juga ikutan poto ama Orochi, buat kenang2an melewati hari2 bersama dia. Pas gue liat hasil potonya di kamera gue, walah.. gue bener2 kebantinggggggg poto disebelah Orochi!!!!!!!! huhuhuhuhu..

So gue potoshop abis2an diri gue supaya layak berdiri dipoto bersama Orochi -cowo terkeren sedunia-. While tampang Orochi gue ga sentuh sama skali karena emang udah ganteng abis dari sononya…

Dan inilah jadinya….

Aku dan Pujaan Hatiku

AEHuaHEuAHEuAEuAEHuAHEAE… KEREN YAH!!!!
Pokoknya that two days bener2 fun banget buat gue. Apalagi sempat beberapa kali dipeluk and disenggol2 ama Orochi, sampe serrrrr rasanya… AHeuAHEUhAUEhaUEhuaEh

Bolak balik gue ngomong ke diri sendiri, “untung si Orochi itu *sensor*, coba kalo ga, bisa abis deh gue…” kekekeke. Habis guanteng buangetttt.  At some points gue sampe bisa meragukan my own sexual orientation. HAEUhAUEhUAEHAE.. *deep, hanya bisa dimengerti oleh some of u*

And sebenernya mereka ajakin gue ke Kuala Lumpur buat attend another anime event. And disana si Orochi and Pinku bakal pake costumenya! Both of them!! Gue pingin banget sih ikut, pingin liat Pinku cosplay.. huhuhu. Apalagi diiming2in bisa skamar ama si Orochi!!!! WAHHHH KAPAN LAGIII!!!!  Bisa jadi scandal heboh tuh digereja kekekekkeke.

Tapi sepertinya gue harus ke Batam jadi ga bisa ngikut mereka. Oh well…

Anyways, for Endiru Team (Orochi, Pinku, Ko Jack, Hendrik):
Tenkiu banget ya udah kasih gue kesempatan buat ngekor kalian photo shoot!! Bener2 fun!!! Apalagi disaat2 dimana gue and Orochi pandang2an. hAUEhUAEHUAEHuAEe… ada rasa yg berbeda… kekekekkekeke

Ntar kalo kalian kesini lagi, gue ikutan lagi ya!! Janganlah bosan melihat saya disekitar kalian…

And ini gue ada bikin short video clip on that day. Mesti liat!!! Kalo mao liat lebih jelasnya sih mendingan kesini, and click on the ‘watch in high quality’, karena disitu kalian bisa liat lebih jelas costumenya and Orochinya. Jauh lebih keren daripada watch in normal quality…

Below is the normal quality… kurang jelas sih…

OROCHI!!! KAMU KOK GUANTENGG BUANGETTT SIHHHH!!!! huhuhuhuhu

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Pas interview…

Gue: Orochi.. cerita donk apa ada kejadian unik yg happened while you guys cosplay. Kan banyak cewe2 yg tergila2 ama loe..
Orochi: Hmm… kapan ari sih pernah ada satu cewe yg waktu aku cosplay, dia pas tau kalau aku ini *sensor*, dia sampe nangis! Hahaha
Gue: Oh yaaa????? *acting surprised*… (dalem ati: yah i know how it felt, gue juga patah hati saat tau si Orochi itu *sensor* huhuhu)

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Orochi tentang ngedrugs…

Gue: Btw, kalian ada pesan2 trakhir buat para fans???
Endiru Team: hmmm apa yaaa…

after a while…

Gue: Ini kalian costumenya bikin pake apa??
Ko Jack: (salah satu team member), iya pake apa aja. Lemnya kita pake lem spatu..
Gue: Oh lem spatu ya?? Lem yg ama orang2 buat ngobat itu kan? Glue sniffing… bisa bikin ketagihan..
Endiru team: iyaaaa benerrrr… (terus kita somehow bisa ngomong soal drugs, cocaine etc)
Gue: Loh kok kita jadi ngomongnya soal drugs hahahahaha..
Endiru Team: oh iya ya.. ahahahaha..
Orochi: Iyah, buat apa lah ngedrugs itu. Daripada ngedrugs mendingan cosplay aja…
Gue: Oh itu bisa jadi slogannya Endiru kali ya??? Pesan trakhir untuk para fans kalian itu aja kali…
Orochi: hahaha iya… Don’t do Drugs, just do Cosplay…

AHEuAHEuAHEuAEHuAEh so itulah pesan trakhir dari Orochi untuk kalian2, para fans.. hehehehe

OROCHI!!!! KAPAN KITA BISA NGEDATE LAGIIII????!?!?!?!?!?!
*i miss u already, hai cowo-terkeren-sedunia*

My latest breakthru! YEAY!

Super duper long entry hehe…

But gue mo testify what just happened and what God revealed to me.

I can’t say what exactly happened, karena belon waktunya. It is about the thing that I’ve prayed for 2 years itu. Gue cuma mao cerita the breakthru aja.

Last saturday, something happened yg bikin everything upside down. I wasn’t expecting that to happen at all. I was thinking lately, everything so calm, ga ada riak. Eh tiba2 ini happened, and it reli bikin gue kaget. Padahal miracle did happen end of last month. How come tiba2 semuanya jadi di turn upside down. Then gue dapet understanding, it was like the calm before the storm.

So this thing yg happened bikin gue kaget. And gue tanya Tuhan, “gimana Lord? What should I do?” Then for the last 2 days since that Saturday, gue dibukain banyak hal and semua Firman and semua nubuatan buat gue sejak 2 taon lalu regarding this matter, semuanya nyambung. And I understand now. Especially when Pastor Amos said beginning of last year when he said “Dont worry miracle will happen, but the decision is yours.” Saat itu gue ga begitu ngerti maksudnya. Whats up with making decision? … Now setelah ini semua terjadi, gue ngerti. And yes, now gue dikasih Tuhan option to choose. That I’m the one who has to make the decision.

Trus, on that Saturday night, gue bener2 hancur. Nangis terus gile, sometimes during that night, my heart was numb but I dont know why I couldn’t stop the tears from falling. Then gue cried out to God “Tuhan, I reli feel like I want to disappear… Please take this away from me!!” .. Then tiba2 gue keinget ama verse yg gue tempel didinding kamar gue yaitu:

2 Corinthians 12:8-9
Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time He said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.

Then I was reminded again of what God said to me end of last year regarding this year. He said:

” Things will not be easy for you in 2008. There will be harder trials and challenges. You may stumble, you may cry out to Me to take the cups away from you…”

Then gue ngerti, that this is my cup (cawan suffering). And gue ngerasa situasi dimana gue berada sekarang, I don’t deserve to be in it. And di buku renungan itu tiba2 dia tulis, you are not worthy of the desert, of the suffering. Gue tau hal ini terjadi karena someone else’s perbuatan di masa lalunya. And ini adalah harga yg harus dia bayar but kenapa aku juga harus bayar harga dia gitu. But then somehow I was reminded of Jesus. Dia ga deserve to pay the price yg semestinya kita yg harus bayar. Tapi Dia yg nanggung itu smua.

So thats why gue bisa ngeliat posisi gue saat itu, Tuhan lagi nawarin gue that cup of suffering. It’s not the price that I have to pay, but someone else’s price. Tapi gue mao ga menanggungnya? Gue takut pas itu. And gue liat diri gue ambil itu cup but gue still ga berani untuk minum. Karena disaat gue ambil keputusan to drink that cup, there so much more trials yg gue bakal face. Yg I’m not sure I can take it. Then all of a sudden gue dapet Firman ini:

Psalm 42
“O God my rock,” I cry,
“Why have you forsaken me?”

Gue kaget coz thats what exactly yg Yesus bilang saat Dia disalib. And saat Dia berdoa di taman Getsemani, yg dia sampe nangis, and pori2nya berkeringat seperti darah, coz He was so afraid of the things ahead. He cried out to God juga to take the cup away kan.

Then gue keinget lagi ama nubuatan pastor Danny for me last year too. He said:

“Sometimes, you are asking God, why each time you offer yourself to HIM like a whole loaf of bread, you get it back broken into little pieces. It is like Jesus, He has to break the bread to feed many others”

Gue jadi ngerti. Sejak Pastor Danny nubuat itu, emang Tuhan bener2 mao break gue seperti Jesus. Last year it was like a bread, untuk kasih makan orang banyak, proven saat gue do seminar di Skolah Teologia, students2nya merasa hal2 yg gue bawain itu memuaskan pertanyaan2 mereka. Itu kan hasil dimana gue dibreak like a bread ama Tuhan. Skarang setelah bread, Tuhan kasih gue cawannya. Lengkap deh. hehehe.. And this cup, gue ngerti, it’s about taking other people’s price. Nanggung harga yg mestinya dibayar ama orang lain. Just like Jesus.

And ga kebetulan, kmaren di gereja ada Holy Communion. Gue kaget lagi hehehe.. disaat gue masih ragu2 untuk drink the cup or not, kok tiba2 ada Holy communion. Its like God is saying itu sbagai simbol. And yg bikin gue kaget lagi, Pastor Joseph kmaren preaching ttg being Jesus. His words that strike me, “God expect that from Jesus, and He expect the same thing from us” Haha.. kena lah gue. If I have to be Jesus, gue harus minum itu cup of suffering.

And gue keinget lagi janji gue ama Tuhan. That gue bener2 mao mengabdi ama Dia. As my response of His love to me. That’s all that I can do. And gue tau, saat gue ambil keputusan mengabdi itu, salah satu prosesnya, Tuhan akan hancurkan semuanya yg ada di gue. My heart, my dreams, my hopes, my wants. Karena Dia mao smua itu berasal dari Dia. Tuhan bukan Tuhan yg jahat. He does all that so that He can bring the best for me. Keinginan2 gue belon tentu yg the best for me gitu. And gue emang dulu ambil keputusan that gue mao Tuhan hancurin, gue udah menyiapkan diri untuk itu. So I know saat semua ini terjadi, ini bener2 my penyaliban diri. Kan trakhir2 emang itu yg terjadi ama gue. Yg kmaren2 sih emang my own price that I have to pay, but this time, it’s someone else’s price.

And Tuhan ga maksa gue untuk minum cup itu. He just sodorin ke gue. But I know.. semua Firman and the sermon yg gue dapetin kmaren menunjuk that I have to drink it. But He didn’t force me. So gue disaat sermon, gue ambil keputusan that no matter what I had to obey. Gue akan minum cup itu. Then pas the wine and bread dibagiin pas Holy Communion, disaat gue makan breadnya, gue bisa ngerasa this is so real. Bukan sebagai lambang lagi. And Pastor Joseph quoted Jesus saat He broke the bread “As you eat this, do this as a remembrance of Me”. Man!! saat itu gue bisa ngerasaain this is what Jesus meant when He said “remember Me”, that gue memang harus jadi seperti Dia.

Then setelah gue makan tuh bread, gue angkat the cup of wine tinggi2 kan. Tangan gue gemeteran. Honestly when I drank that cup, gue gemeteran. Coz I know the things ahead will be much harder, and I honestly don’t know if I could make it. But I chose to drink the cup, like what Jesus did. Eventhough Dia juga gemetaran sampe berkeringat darah. And saat gue minum cupnya, I said to God “Tuhan, at the moment I cant see that I can take all thats coming, but I do this by faith coz I know this is what You expect from me”

After that drink, ga tau knapa, everything became so hard on that day. It’s reli hard for me for not crying. Gue bener2 struggle di gereja kmaren. Harus face a lot of people. Especially my youth. And some of them sensed it. Eventhough I laughed with them, I felt ada heaviness in me. Gue ngerasa so not me, gampang banget on that day air mata gue ngalir. Gue udah tahan2in. Tapi yah gitu. Sampe ada a few yg nanya out of the blue, “ci, are you crying?”, “are you sad?”. Hehe. I just felt kmaren ini things kerasa so heavy. Lagi terluka lah. Pas di food court lagi! malu2in abis coz dikit2 nangis, karena wound gue masih raw, and slightest rub on it, bikin gue react by crying hUAHEuaHEuhaEe.. very aneh lah. So not me. Sampe si Lala ga tenang ngeliat gue, and tenkiu La for crying with me saat gue ceritain what happened. That means a lot. And Davin juga kelabakan ngeliat gue, sampe dia bilang “jgn nangis yaaa, please” Coz salah satu weakness dia, gue baru tau.. yaitu dia ga tahan liat cewe nangis (yess!! I can use that weakness sometimes in the future HAUEhAUEhuaHEe.. ) . Sorry guys yah for yesterday, I wasn’t myself. But I thank God bgt for you guys yg udah support me banget. I love you guys banget banget hehehe.. really appreciate it. I thank God for the love of God in you guys thats so real for me.

And sejak Sabtu malem itu, sampe skarang, gue ga ngerasa sama skali Tuhan touch me. What I mean by that is: biasanya setiap kali gue menghadapi trials regarding this matter, and disaat gue nangis, Dia selalu touched me, peluk gue, sayank2 gue. But this time, He is not. But this time, I can feel Him watching, He offered the cup in His hand, and He is firm. And yg gue dapetin, He wants me to grow up this time. Ga perlu kayak dulu lagi, yg setiap kalau gue nangis soal ini, Dia sayang2 gue. And gue ngerti that He is being a Good Father. Meskipun Dia ga sayang2 gue, He wants to show me that gue udah gede, udah ga perlu lagi disayang2. Yg perlu di touched supaya ngerasa kalo Dia sayank gue gitu. And I understand that. Gue ga ngerasa sakit hati, kepaitan, or mengeluh ama Tuhan all this happened, yg tiba2 semuanya jadi berbalik 180 degrees. Gue ngerasa no matter what, He is GOD gitu loh. Banyak orang yg trying to critize God. Not happy of things that happened to them and complain, saying that God is unfair etc. I don’t want to be one of them. Gue mao belajar jadi anak yg baik. Don’t be silly, who am I to judge and criticize Him?

Gue ngerasa skarang, at this very moment, He is looking at down at me and has a smile on His face. He is well-pleased karena gue ngeresponi ini smua dengan sikap hati yg benar. Thank you Lord.

And kmaren kan gue ga ngerasa Dia touched me, but He knows in the process of me growing up, gue masih butuh support from Him. He is like a Father yg liat anaknya lagi stumble, jatuh dan terluka, tapi Dia ga langsung lari datengin tuh anak dan sayank2. Tapi Dia watching, and Dia still memberi dukungan dibelakang. He proved that to me, by this: .. tiba2 si Nesha kmaren pas di gereja and di food court, said only this and nothing else: “I love you” to me 3 times in different occasions. Then malemnya, si Edo tiba2 telpon and he said suddenly got the burden to pray for me. And when I smsed Nesha saying tenkiu for the ‘I love you’, she replied, “I just felt that you need it.” And gue bisa ngeliat that is God working. A Father yg ga pernah akan ninggalin anakNya, Dia tau sampai mana batas kemampuan anakNya menghadapi smua ini.

Trus kmaren Pastor Joseph, who knows whats going on and actually all of us involved straight in it… he said “saat kamu minum cawan(cup) itu, dan Tuhan mengijinkan semua ini terjadi, berarti Tuhan akan memberi kamu pengurapan double, kasih Tuhan akan smakin dinyatakan dalam hidupmu. Dan He will reveal Himself more to you, more than other people. Seperti Katherine Khulman. Dia juga harus minum cawan dari Tuhan, tapi kamu lihat, Tuhan reveal Himself more to her. And her ministry is very powerful because of that.”

WOW.. and that is a confirmation for me. A confirmation ttg apa yg gue dapetin last year for this year itu kan. Yg ini:

“Things will not be easy for you. 2008 will have you run even faster. There will be harder trials and challenges. But MY GRACE is sufficient for you. Though you may stumble, you may cry out to Me to take the cups away, but I promise you, … through all these trials, YOU WILL KNOW WHO I REALLY AM…. And that’s the greatest reward of all….”

He is saying that He will reveal Himself more to me. WOW.. that’s really the greatest reward of all !!!! HAUEhaUEhuaEhuaeh cool… and HE promise me that, man! Haleluyah banget!

And itu yg bikin gue tegar. And devotional kmaren said, when you were in the desert, you responded with the right attitude, still keeping your soul to God, He will give you a reward, He will increase His blessing on you a ten, sixty, hundred times more.

And saat gue baca itu, gue keinget ama nubuatan Pastor Danny lagi taun lalu. He said to me, “new life will come, there will be an increase…” and Pastor Amos nubuat the same thing to me this year yaitu there will be an increase for me. Haha.. i know increase nya both in blessings and trials .. hehe.. but it’s cool.

Isn’t it soooo amazing?? Almost every nubuatan and suara dan Firman Tuhan yg gue dapetin, semuanya nyambunggggggggg!!! Even when I drank the cup, gue gemeteran kan. And HE said “my Grace is sufficient for you”, itu relevant banget ama yg gue tulis diatas, kata2 Tuhan yg gue dapetin for this year.

Man!! Tuhan emang luar biasa.

Gue tulis ini semua, karena gue ngerasa He deserves all the glory. His ways are beyond my ways, meskipun sakit2 tapi Dia tetep proves himself to be my GOD yg I can count on Him at all times. Yg ga ada satu pun bisa menyaingi jalanNya. I applaud my God for this!…

Tuhan!! Kenapa Engkau bisa seKEREN ITU YAAAA???? *stupid question* hAUEhuaEhuaehuae

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From my devotional this morning:

Mazmur 3:3-5
Tetapi Engkau, ya TUHAN, adalah perisai yang melindungi aku. Kauberi aku kemenangan, dan Kaubesarkan hatiku. Aku berseru kepada TUHAN; dari bukit-Nya yang suci Ia menjawab aku. Aku berbaring dan tidur dengan tentram, dan bangun lagi, sebab TUHAN menopang aku.~~

Buatlah keputusan yg tegas bahwa apapun yg datang menghantam hidupmu, kamu akan tetap berdiri secara mental.

Mantap

Goodbye 2007

What HE has done for me in 2007

1. This blog. Ga nyangka ternyata my blog lumayan dibaca ama banyak orang and some of them jadi fans of my writing

2. The one that I have been praying for, for 7 years, someone from my past, someone yg udah turned my life upside down dulu, tiba2 muncul and apologized.

3. Given the responsibility to lead the youth. Directly under our Youth Pastor.

4. In 2003, a pastor had prophesied 3 things about me. What I will be, my calling. One of them is a teacher, and a few months ago, that prophecy is fulfilled. My pastor has officially ordained me as one. To teach a basic Bible Study class.

5. Yg kedua, adalah a writer. I can see a door opening to that direction. Pastor Bobby asked me to help him write a book, a project together with him starting next year. We’ll see… A book about ‘Kita kuat karena jatuh cinta ama Tuhan’

6. In Dec 2006, Pastor Amos’ nubuatan:
“You are a fighter. Don’t give up. 2007 for you is a year of trusting God and a year of victory”

That gives me the strength to face all the challenges throughout 2007.

7. Bokap, nyokap pisah. It seems like things are breaking apart, but I can always trust my God. He is building a new foundation. For that He needs to destroy the wrong foundation yg udah dibangun dulu2. It seems it may be too late for my mom and dad, but My God is a God of Impossible. DIA baik.

8. I know where I am going, my vision, my calling. Udah mulai kelihatan jelas. And I’m running towards it.

9. him.

10. Testified in front of 500-800 anak2 skolah. HE gave me strength throughout the ordeal. It was not easy, many many times I felt like quitting, but HE was always there with me and for me.

11. Learned some valuable lessons about being a woman yg cantik dimata Tuhan. Selama taon ini prosesnya menyakitkan, my heart literally bled. Pengorbanan gue yg terbesar this year is my dignity as a woman, my ego, my harga diri, my heart, dikikis abis ama Tuhan. Dicemooh, dihina dan diprosecute orang, sakit rasanya…Sampe akhirnya I can only bersandar sepenuhnya ama Dia for my self-worth, my hope and my everything. And HE always holds my hands and ga pernah sekali pun HE let me go.

12. Was in my saddest moment this year, November lalu. I never felt so low in my life, ngerasain dipermalukan abis2an sebagai cewe and never in my life I needed HIM so desperately. I couldn’t remember how I survived the night, survived that journey home. The only thing that I remember is that how HE loves me, how HE olesin kasihNYA on my gaping wounds and aching heart. He never fail to let me know how much HE loves me. That’s what make me strong again. DIA sungguh baik.

13.

“Tuhan akan pakai kamu secara luar biasa. Ga tau lagi deh ci2, kamu mao dibawa kemana ama Tuhan. Mungkin lebih dari ci2. Kamu sudah bisa lari kejar visi kamu. Ci2 udah bisa melepaskan kamu. Tugas cici adalah untuk memagari kamu dalam doa. Kamu akan memberkati bangsa2 dan membangun army of God. Kamu akan dipakai Tuhan luar biasa tapi ingat semuanya itu karunia Tuhan. Kamu ada visi kan, akan ada tantangan2 besar, tapi kamu harus maju terus. Dan seperti di mimpi kamu, kamu akan aman dalam naungan Tuhan” – Spiritual Mentor.

“Your partner will come, and together you will reach the multitude. You will be spiritual parents for the broken. Sometimes, you are asking God, why each time you offer yourself to HIM like a whole loaf of bread, you get it back broken into little pieces. It is like Jesus, He has to break the bread to feed many others” – Pastor Danny.

“Kalau kamu yakin akan hal itu, fight for it” – Pastor Jukian.

“I admire your character, courage and boldness. What impressed me is that each time kamu dihantam oleh satu problem, kamu stumble, tapi kamu selalu bangkit lagi and jadi even stronger.” – Pastor Arief

“Pastor suka lihat kamu. Spirit kamu, kamu beda dengan wanita2 lain. Ada nilainya. Kalau ternyata semua yg terjadi ini adalah bukan, kamu akan jadi dasyat, jadi wanita yg tabah” – Pastor Bobby

“Waktu itu aku ada dengerin kotbah ttg wanita cantik dimata Tuhan. Dikasih tau kriteria2nya dan aku langsung keingat kakak. Kakak udah ada itu, tinggal ditingkatkan aja.” – Adik rohani.

“Akan selalu ada 2 sides of people. Yg satu akan judge kamu, yg satu lagi membutuhkan orang2 seperti kamu. God needs the broken to reach the broken. Tapi untuk itu, ada harga yg harus kamu bayar. Tapi kamu responsible for your own mental strength. Build that. Stop being self-conscious, be God-conscious.” – Pastor Danny.

Give all the glory to HIM.

14. Revelation ttg prophetic prayer. When we pray with the leading of Holy Spirit, sometimes He will let us know of things yg belon terjadi dan akhirnya benar2 terjadi. And it happened for a few times this year for me. A very valuable lesson from Him. DIA baik

15. Visions/penglihatan:
- ‘burning hands’
He let me see something yg to me is too impossible for me to able to do it. So I guess itu bener2 karunia yg besar dari Dia. We’ll see…
- Joyce Meyer and Marylin Hickey.

16. He revealed to me lebih dalam lagi ttg kekudusan, blood covenant and pemulihan yg sempurna dari Darah Tuhan Yesus yg sudah dicurahkan.

17. Missions.

“Kehendak Tuhan atas hidupmu akan dinyatakan di mission ini.” – Spiritual Mentor on my first mission journey (Samosir)

“Evangelism and mission are your things. God is preparing you. He is strengthening your spirit” – Pastor Amos before he even knew me. (Samosir)

“wah kamu bisa ya benar2 masuk kedalam masyarakatnya. Bisa dekat seperti itu. Waktu saya lihat kamu, ini nih yg benar2 ada hati buat misi” – Bro. Nixon (Samosir)

It is true what my mentor said, kehendak Tuhan dalam hidup gue akan dinyatakan di misi Samosir itu. And that is .. Missions.

This year: Samosir, Johor, Sabah, Kalimantan
Next coming years: NTT(Sumba), Flores, Papua

18. Diutus by my spiritual mentor to build and counsel beberapa dari para pendoa di Johor, untuk mendukung pelayanan Pastor Bobby. DIA baik.

HE has done for me a lot of wonderful things this year. Things that I never thought of capable of doing. He shows His Mighty Glory through my life testimonies, my struggles, my trials. And for me personally, that is the greatest honor.

2007 has been crazy.

2008 will be even crazier.

“Tahan dia dalam rancanganMU. Supaya dia tetap memilih pilihanMU yg pertama. Bukan yg kedua. Bukan yg ketiga. Kuatkan dia untuk hal2 tidak terduga yg akan datang ditaun depan.” – Pastor Jim Yosh.

DIA SUNGGUH BAIK.

Bukan kebaikanku,
bukan perbuatanku,
tapi kasih karuniaMU yg slamatkan aku
Bukan kebenaranku,
bukan kekuatanku,
tapi kasih karuniaMU di dalam hidupku.

So, goodbye 2007.

Hello 2008.

Frankly, I’m kinda scared of what 2008 will hold for me. But..

“Things will not be easy for you. 2008 will have you run even faster. There will be harder trials and challenges. But MY GRACE is sufficient for you. Though you may stumble, you may cry out to Me to take the cups away, but I promise you, … through all these trials, YOU WILL KNOW WHO I REALLY AM…. And that’s the greatest reward of all….”

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Thank you, Lord for 2007. I will run even faster with You in 2008.
My prayer is.. so that I will be able to catch up with You always… for the rest of my life.

by Your grace.

TUHANKU SUNGGUH DASYATTTTTTTTTTT and His love helps me overcome!!!!!

We will overcome by the blood of The Lamb and the word of our testimony!

dan semua ini hanya bagi kemuliaanMU.

Seandainya…

Gue dapet ide nulis ini post dari satu blog yg gue came across today.

Ceritanya…

Seandainya temen2 anda menghadapi suatu kejadian, sifat dan karakter mereka akan menentukan reaksi mereka menghadapi kejadian tersebut…

Gue udah bisa bayangin beberapa karakter2 unik dari temen2 sekeliling gue yg bisa gue pake HAUEhUAEHuAEe.. so here it goes…

Situasi: Jika menghadapi batu besar ketika menyetir mobil….

Septi:
(padahal ama sopir) *telp Edo*.. Edooo tolongin donkkk, ini sopir gue ga mao angkatin batu besar yg halangin mobil. Loe bisa dateng ga? Angkatin yaaa pleasee..

Rennita:
Aduh, puyeng.. Gimana nih, mati deh gue. Gue ga bisa angkat, beratttt. Aduh Aduh pusingggg, stresssss… Eh disitu ada Mall toh, udah ah mending gue shopping dulu… stress gue stress!!! I need my retail therapy!!!
*ngeloyor pegi ninggalin mobilnya didepan batu..*

Lukas:
*tidur*

Zeno:
Hmmm ada batu… batunya besar… hmmm…
*ting ting dapet ilham*
Batu, kamu adalah sebuah batu. Batu yg diam, tidak bisa bergerak. Batu yg tidak dihiraukan orang. Oh, batu, apakah yg kau rasakan? Tidakkah kau merasa sunyi sepi sendiri tanpa ada yg menemani…

Budi:
Aduh…. wakakaka ADA BATU wakakakaka. Berat lagi wakakakaka… Gue bisa telat nih ketemu anak2 gue wkakakaka….wakakaka…wakakaka..wakakaka… (repeat for 100x)

Wira:
Hmmm batu. Mari kita liat, dia jatuhnya dari mana. Angle nya menghadap kemana. Hmmm sepertinya kalau gue dorong pake kekuatan 50% dengan angle tangan gue 45 derajat keatas, dia akan bergerak maju satu senti. Hmm.. bentar2 let me get my laptop and search google for the most efficient way to move this batu…

Tony:
*hening*…. *hening*…. *liat kiri liat kanan*…*ambil palang dipinggir jalan*.. *geser tuh batu pake palang*..*batu tergeser*… *jalan terbuka*… *tony drove off*…

Erica:
alamakkk kok ada batu sih!! dasar batu kecentilan!! Ga tau ya erica cantik ini mao lewat tau!! Dasar batu ga tau diri!!! Mending kalau cowo cakep yg tiba2 pingsan dijalan! Kan gue bisa grepe2!!! Tapi batu! udah jelek lagi loe!.. Minggir sono!! erica cantik mao lewat!!!!! Ngerti kan!! Saya CANTIK!!!
*by the power of her beauty, batu itu pun bergerak sendiri ke pinggir*

Davin:
Wah batu.. hmmm.. gini deh… *he does his stuff, ga tau apa, pokoknya berhasil pindahin batu*… hehehehe… KEREN KAN GUE. Bisa pindahin batu segede itu coba!!! Sapa dulu man!! Gue keren lah pokoknya man… udah keren, baik lagi! Gue ini very extremely High Quality Jomblo banget…

Kath:
Kyaaaaa ada batuuu mamiiiiii.. gimana mammm? aduh batunya gede lagi.. eh tapi lucu juga ya bentuknya tuh batuuu .. kyaaaa.. ada warna warnanya gituuuuuhhhh… coba kalo batunya warnanya merah hitam gitu pasti kyaaaa bangetttt. Yok kita poto2 yukkk ama batunyaaaaa… kyaaaaaaa!!!!

Anita Princesse alias nit2:
Wah ada batu bol, hmm diliat2 kok lucu dan unik bentuknya. KHEREENN YOOO…. AKU MAUUUUUUUUUUU… bawa pulang ahhhhh… ga peduli rumahku udah penuh barang2 sampah ga jelas kumpulan dari mana2, pokoknya aku mauuuuuuuuu!!!

(sekilas info: tiap kali ini anak teriakin kata2 ajaibnya *Aku Mauuuu* orang2 disekitar dia udah was2 barang antik/aneh/sampah apa lagi yg dia mao bawa pulang)

Anita Carmencita:
Kalo pas dia di indo: Dang ada batu! *langsung telp anak buahnya*…
“Kamu bawa ya si bejo, si rukmin, si lukmin, si sarimin etc etc. Cepet ya! Saya telat nanti meeting client penting! Kamu semua harus nyampe dalam 5 menit!!!!”
5 mins later, mereka nyampe dan batunya disingkirkan. Anita pun drives away with a satisfied heart sambil bilang.. “memang pegawai2ku bisa diandalkan”

Kalo pas di Scotland: Dang ada batu!!… Aduh baju gue hari ini ga cocok buat angkat nih batuuu, padahal weathernya kali ini kan bilang bakalan dingin!! Mana mungkin batunya bisa diangkat kalo frozen!!! Aduh dasar weather sialan!!! *bete and akhirnya cari internet cafe terdekat, and ngeblog ngelampiasin unek2nya.*

Anton:
Waduh ada batu.. tau ga.. batu itu kepanjangannya apa? ..*insert lame joke here*…
Tau ga gimana caranya mindahin batu dengan benar?
..*insert another lame joke here*…

Dion:
if (strength to remove batu < 0)
{
if (Batu.IndexOf (-.-) > = 0)
alert (“batu cannot be removed”) ;
else if (Batu.IndexOf (^.^) = = 700000)
alert (“batu will be destroyed by the powerful laser beam from StarTrek BattleShip)

Citra Kucit Hota He:
BAOHAUHAUHAUHaAA ADA BATU!!! *gamparrrr* Sapa yg berani ama gue!!! Hayo sini batu!! Kamu cowoQ yah!!!! Batu CowoQ seperti loe ke laut aje!!! MaKAN Tuh BATUUU!!! BAhOAahAooAoAEAHBaaAio!! SUdah MUAK AKU DENGAN BATU APALAGI YG NAMANYA BATU JANTAN!!! *gajebo* *gajebo* *prikitiwwwwwwww*

(Sekilas info: maap sodara2.. sampe skarang penulis alias gue masih tidak mengerti arti the last 2 words… mbak citra diminta untuk harap menjelaskan)

Billy:
Eh, pakcikkkk, ada batu! Bentar2, loe mao liat trick magic gue terbaru?.. gue bakal ilangin ini batu!!! *insert very lame magic trick here, for example: dia ambil sapu tangan, and taruh sapu tangan nutupin mata sambil bilang … “Tuh, batunya hilang, ga keliatan lagi kan!!!!!”*

Thadya:
*straight away froze the batu with her cold stare, and blow it to pieces*

Gue:
Aduh ada batu. *mobil dimundurin, cari jalan lain. Kalo ga dapet ya pulang, enakan tidur dirumah*

hehehe..

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ahhh… cape….. but I can only obey…

Lord, cleanse my heart, cleanse my soul…. What all I want to do is to obey You…

People that has been an inspiration to me

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Added one more person and one quote from C 

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This entry is special.. hehehe

A tribute buat mereka that has been, was, or is my inspirations.

Why them?

The things that I wrote below are random, you have to connect which one is which yourself..

A. Tiap kali liat ini orang, pasti kebakar ama semangatnya.. hehehe.. Seems like his fire never dies, very inspirational. Has a firm foundation in the Lord, yet humble at the same time. He burns everyone with his passion for God. We truly kehilangan dia when he’s moving to another country. A very dear brother in Christ.

B. “if I die, I will die as a youth pastor”. That sums it all..

This guy has my respect.

C. She was my shoulder-to-cry-on when I was in Sydney. I really look up to her gentleness and inner beauty. Each time I think of her, I see godly wisdom, strength and the love of God flow out from her. She is a Proverbs 31 woman to me, serving faithfully hand in hand with her inspirational husband plus pastor.

Her inspiring words:

“You are a beautiful woman of God, but the you inside is even more beautiful — and as you continue to stick close to God, it is a beauty that will never fade in time”

D. The only girl who made me cry over her for two days, when she went back to her city. Then the next day, I booked an airplane ticket to see her and we only knew each other for 2 months at that time.

She was the light in the midst of my brokenness. I won’t forget the moment when I was attacked so badly, she was there and prayed for me, asking the angels to cover my ears from the enemy’s condemnation. And it worked like a miracle. She was the one who taught me and made me embrace the meaning of ‘beauty’.

E. He laid down his future, his ambition, needs, wants, desires to chase God, giving his life to Him in total trust. He is the only person that manage to make me so moved to the point that I had tears in my eyes when I saw, for the first time: his vision, his calling and his heart for God. The second person that made me say to myself, “if he can do it, why can’t I?

I’m really looking forward to see how God will bring him even further in his calling, which is similar to mine.

F. I cant describe how much I thank God for her. Teaching, shaping, guiding and mentoring me to be a woman of God. I’ve been very very blessed. Even how she came to approach me was done by Him. Miraculous thing happened and she told me that He instructed her to mentor me as I’m being prepared for something big, and now I can see what it is.. So thats why I really2 thank God for her. Without her godly guidance, I might not be who I am now, serving and chasing His calling with all I have. By His Grace.

G. He was in my life for a while, being a close friend and a confidant. He was there when I needed someone. I won’t forget the day when I was really at the bottom of the pit, I was crying out to God for someone whom I could talk to, whom could pray for me at that instant. But it was 4 o’clock in the morning. No one was there. Miraculously, he appeared and asked me how I was, I told him what had happened, and he prayed for me. He probably will never know how much that meant to me until now.

H. I saw her as a very strong girl, but she had her share of pain and heartaches. But she presevered.. I still remember her words that strike my heart, in 2002, on the day when I was almost gone. “In my life, I have God, I have my boyfren, I have this and that. But still I’m struggling…”

That somehow opened up my eyes and made me said to myself ‘if she can do it, why can’t I?’. Her words made me ‘bangkit’

She saw my dark days, was involved in it yet she didn’t judge me, she didn’t condemn me, but she was simply being there for me and she was also there when I was slowly discovering God.

I. Can’t say that he is my inspiration hehehe. But he is indeed the longest and closest fren that I have. Been thru a lot together. From the dark days till now… It’s amusing if we look back our journey of life together as friends. Never imagine that we will end up like who we are now individually. Finding God and stuff. We had our bad ‘moments’, malah he told me that I’m the most annoying person that he knows. But no matter what, we know that at the end of the day everything will be okay again with us.

Somehow I can see myself with him masih temenan baik when we are sudah nenek2 and kakek2. Sipping coffee together, ngobrol2 and reminiscing our youth, our calling etc. That is a sweet picture

He is the only person that I trusted and allowed to read my old diaries.

Conversation with him yg gue paling inget sampe skarang coz it’s very sweet to me: ( I bet he doesn’t remember this.. )

In 2004

Him: “Nel, nanti loe udah ketemu calon suami loe, harus dikenalin ama gue. Gue pingin tau dia orangnya seperti apa.”
Me: “knapa?”
Him: “iya, coz you are an important person to me, and gue ga mao sembarangan cowo dapetin loe. He has to prove to me that he deserves you.”

Awww… isnt that sweet

And early this year, when I introduced him to him, yg sepertinya bakal jadi calon suami gue,
he said, “ok.. he passed”

J. Some kind of my big brother. Took care of me when I was still discovering God. One thing that he wrote that touched me.
‘eksentrik, unik, langka, talented,
pokoknya you are someone special in
this universe and there is only one
Nelly that I know and if I miss you I
couldn’t find it anywhere else’

Most of things that come out from his mouth is godly wisdom. One of them that gue pegang sampe skarang:

‘kalau Tuhan yg memulai, pasti Tuhan yg akan menyelesaikan’

K. What can I say abt this person. The youngest of all, still 17 years old. But everytime I see him, I always praise God for such an anointed godly young man. He reminds me of Matthew 5:14-16. The light of God that shines from him can’t be hidden. I never stop being amazed looking at his very young age tapi udah banyak Godly values in him. Ga banyak yg bisa begitu. Itu bener2 karunia Tuhan yg besar for him.
I’m praying that my son will be somehow like him

M. Her joy and strength amaze me. She has been through a lot, her past and her present. But she’s always joyful, full of praise to God. Always upbeat, the coolest mom and granma that I’ve known. There are people whom, after you finish talking to them, will leave you feel so encouraged. She is definitely one of them.

N. One guy that has earned my utter respect. Very down to earth, yet I know he can be very successful in EVERYTHING he does. He is the only guy that reminds me of the Spirit of Excellence. Whatever he does, he does it with almost one inch to perfection. Man of little words, but its his actions that bless others around him so much. He is truly a great blessing to his surrounding and wherever he goes.

His quote that I love:
“I live my life like it is summer mission everyday, that’s why I bring my backpack everywhere I go”

O. I am very impressed with this person’s character. His abundant joy spreads like fire. Inspirational worship leader, I have never seen someone jump so high on stage when they praise God as high as him hehe. Always smiling and vibrant. A joy to be with. Looking at him,  no one will ever guess what he had been through. Eventhough his wife was suffering from cancer for 3 years, and they just got married, he stood by her, still praising God and spread his joy in Him.  I couldn’t imagine how he felt at that time, that’s why I’m amazed looking at him until now. Even until his wife passed away, he is still praising and worshipping God with all he has. He has my total respect.  A man of God. And no doubt God will use him mightily. Definitely my inspiration.

P. Mestinya ada satu lagi, tapi I couldn’t find her picture. Anyways, she has been my trusted confidant. A great big sister who never fails to encourage and strengthen me. A woman of godly strength and wisdom. Whatever comes out from her mouth is always to build others. Tegas, affirming yet loving at the same time. I love the way she builds people around her and I learned alot just by observing her.

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- My ’strong conviction’: 11/10/07
For God in all his fullness was pleased to live in Christ, and through him God reconciled everything to himself. He made peace with everything in heaven and on earth by means of Christ’s blood on the cross.

This includes you who were once far away from God. You were his enemies, separated from him by your evil thoughts and actions. Yet now he has reconciled you to himself through the death of Christ in his physical body. As a result, he has brought you into his own presence, and you are HOLY and BLAMELESS as you stand before him WITHOUT A SINGLE FAULT.

But you must CONTINUE TO BELIEVE THIS TRUTH AND STAND FIRMLY IN IT. DON’T DRIFT AWAY FROM THE ASSURANCE YOU RECEIVED when you heard the Good News. The Good News has been preached all over the world, and I, Paul, have been appointed as God’s servant – (Colossians 1:19-23)

Artis siapa yg mirip aku?

Beberapa hari lalu si Anton KYAAA kirim comment di frenster gue, tulisannya: “check my profile, ci nolet”

Ok loh gue check… then…

AJEGILE… BIKIN GUE KESELEK GARA2 LIAT GAMBAR INI DIPROFILE DIA…. terutama pas baca kata2 yg gue lingkarin dibawah ini…

Emang tuh anak selalu gembor2in kalau Andy Lau mirip dia. Ga tau dia dapet dari mana ide itu, kalo ga salah dia pernah bilang karena aunty nya yg bilang hhihihi… congrats deh ton.. anda sudah bisa membuktikan kalau emang anda ada kemiripan dengan Cak Lau ku… tapi yah hasil komputer bisa diragukan lah ya…

Gara2 dia, gue jadi penasaran juga mo nyobain poto gue mirip sapa. Sapa tau eh mirip ama Kwan Ce Lin.. hehehehe.. So, gue coba2 loh.. and hasilnya ternyata menakjubkan, sampe saya terpana!!!

AHHHHH saya jadi maluuuuuu….. ternyata..

ternyata……….

saya…………..

SECANTIK ITU KAH??????

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ah ANTON KYAAAku.. gue jadi percaya kalo loe ada 54% kemiripan ama Andy lau…

HAUEHAUEhUHEUAHEAE…

Then… then.. gue ada pikiran mao iseng… *as usual*

Mao pake poto septi.. So here we go….

PREPARE FOR THE SHOCK OF THE CENTURY

Ternyata, eng ing eng..

si septi 74% mirip RONAN KEATING!!!!.. HAEuHAEUHAUEhaEueae… liat aja hasil dibawah ini..

Sapa man si MAWI????? HAUEhAUEhAUEhAEe…
Gile gue asli ketawa ngakak liat hasilnya. Gue kan lagi kerja tuh, sampe perut sakit nahan2in ketawa…

Then gue mo iseng lagi. Pake poto budiiiiiiii!!!!! YATTTAAAA!!!! gara2 gue abis nonton Heroes. Tuh si Hiro miriiiiipppp banget ama si budiiiii… gaya2nya, cara ngomongnya, sok cutenya!! jadi gue mo pake poto budi sapa tau beneran keluarnya mirip si hiro.
(*Sekilas info: si budi ada kasih tau gue, beberapa bulan lalu, ada orang2 dari indo dateng ke company dia. Buat training or something gitu deh. Pas ngeliat budi langsung kaget.. untuk lebih jelasnya, baca aja dibawah email dari budi sendiri:

“tau gak, pas acara di kantor ku waktu itu .. ada orang2 indo dateng ..

bulan may itu .. mereka ngajak aku photo .. katanya HIROOO HIRRROO =x

wkakakaka .. aku bingung .. mau ga mau aku photo dah ama mereka .. nanti di bilang jadi artist kok sombong =x wkakakakakakak”

… kita ternyata punya banyak artis ya. Ada Anton yg mirip Andy Lau, ada Budi yg mirip Hiro, dan ada gue yg mirip Joey Yung hAUEhUAEHuAHEuAEHuhae *btw sapa sih tuh mbak joey, saya tak kenal. Tak kenal maka tak sayang*)

Trus gue cari poto budi yg rada2 mirip Hiro gitu, then gue upload and lumayan deg2an nungguin hasilnya…. tapi yg keluar kok seperti ini.. anchurrrr…

HAEuhAUEhAUEhAUEhea APA2AN INI, LOE MIRIP IMELDA MARCOS BUD???? AHEuHAEUhAEUhAUEhAEe… aduh gue sampe keselek.. and gue jadi ga tega ama budi, kasian kok keluarnya kayak gini hasilnya. Lagian gue mao cari hasil yg bilang dia mirip Hiro.. jadi gue dengan tidak menyerah, upload lagi poto budi yg laen, ….

HAEuHAEUhAUEhAUEhUAEHuAEHuAHEuAEHuAEHuAEhuAEHuAEHuAHEu

I GOT NOTHING MORE TO SAY.

Dua kali aku mencoba, dua kali hasilnya seperti ini… AHEuhAUEhUAEHuAHEe

Udah lah bud, terima aja nasibmu.

PS: Heroes ternyata seru abis gile!!!! Must watch! banyak twist2nya… my kind of show.. hohoho
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..sometimes, i really want to let you go… but I have already made a promise to HIM, you and her, not to… so I guess I can’t. But I know no matter what, I can trust HIM.

ganbatte ne Nelly san!

Hasil kuis edan

Ok, sekarang sudah tiba saatnya diriku mengumumkan hasil2 test how-well-u-know-me.

Dan pemenangnya adalahhhhhhh tak laen dan tak bukan adalah DIONNNNN!!!! Dengan score yg mengaggumkan… 90%, sodara2!!!

*plok2 standing applause*… emang ga salah gue rooted for u yon!!! I know you going to make it!!! Selamat, anda sudah memenangkan sebuah kantong plastik cantik!!

Ah pokoknya gue bangga ama dion. Memang dia yg paling mengerti diriku… HAUEhAUEhUAHEe. Ternyata memang ga salah kita mengarungi kehidupan flatmate ria bersama selama 4 taon di sydney dulu hohoho. With his knowledge and power of deduction he emerges as the top scorer! Gue sempat tercengang2 ga percaya dia bisa score nya segitu hAUEhUAEhuaEe. Hebat hebat, padahal question gue kan susah. Emang Dion genius…

Mari kita skarang membahas test yg dimaksud, dengan menggunakan jawaban2 Anton KYAAA sebagai model.

Background story dari question 1

Anton: (pas lagi ngisi kuisnya) “CI!!!! AWAS YA KALO JAWABAN NOMER SATU BUKAN GUE, GUE BACOK LOE!!”

EHuAHEuAHEuAEhaueh sebetulnya banyak juga yg jawab piaraan gue si budi, ga cuma anton aja… si lukas dengan tidak segan2 dan tak berpikir panjang langsung pilih budi

Dari 23 orang yg ngisi test gue cuma si budi and anton yg menjawab dengan benar question #17!! Inilah motto yg sangat saya junjung tinggi. Liat aja dirumah gue skarang, telah terkumpul TV gratis, sofa gratis, microwave gratis, kursi gratis, keyboard gratis etc etc… Jika sodara2 punya barang2 yg tidak dibutuhkan lagi, anda tau anda harus kontak siapa.

AND THE BEST ANSWER OF ALL IS…. *eng ing eng..*

dari jawaban septi sendiri…

HEuAHEuAEHuAEhuaEh septi menyadari diri sendiri kalo suaranya saat menyanyi itu rada2… hihihi… Hebat loe sep…kalo ini ga perlu pake deduction and mikir terlalu panjang ya…

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Si Anton KYAAA juga ga mao kalah bikin test… isi testnya bener2 mencerminkan sifat anton, yaitu ga jelas punya…

Tapi gue scorenya paling tinggih loh.. 90%.. AHEuHAEuhaEUhaueh retake sih. Yg pertama 60, kedua 90. Hebat juga gue dalam mengerti isi hati Anton KYAAA idolaku…

Liat aja cuplikan2 question dia… asli ga jelas punya…

And ada cerita sekilas dibalik question dibawah ini…

And di score boardnya Anton.. si septi nulis comment begini…

Gue pikir dia bercanda… eh kira2 the next day, kita lagi ngobrol2

Septi: “eh kuisnya si anton bener2 jayus abis ya”
Gue: “iya la anton banget. Gue dapet highest score lohhhh” *Bangga meskipun retake* hehehehe
Septi: “oh ya??? hebat bener loe.. yg password frensternya anton pun loe correct??”
Gue: “iya..”
Septi: “wahhhh trus loe tau donk password frenster dia??????”
Gue: “huh?”
Septi: “iya donk, gue pas baca question dia itu kaget man, kok dia taruh password frenster dia. Ntar yg jawabnya bener kan bisa masuk ke account frenster dia!!!!”
Gue: ……………………………..

Beneran asli gue ga tau mo ketawa atau nangis darah ….

Kuis seru, asik dan berhadiah cantik

hohohoho.. dah lama ga nge update… banyak hal lagi yg terjadi… and semuanya baik2 saja. Someone of my past tiba2 muncul… interesting.. but finally i can close this chapter.. and I’m running and chasing HIS calling even more. Loving it.

Anyway, gue ada bikin kuis untuk kalian isi.. kuis gila ala nelly. Untuk nge-test how well u know me. Dulu gue kalo ga salah pernah bikin test macam ini juga, and the highest score went to Dion, he scored a perfect 100!!!!!. Ah Dion, dikau memang yg paling mengenal diriku… HAUEhUAEhUAEhuaEe.. Tidak percuma kita pernah berflatmate ria selama 4 taon… huhuhuhu. I LOVE YOU YON… HUEhAEKhAEUAEhAEKe

Ini test tidak boring dan tidak mengecewakan. Bagi yg bisa get the highest score akan mendapatkan hadiah sebuah kantong plastik cantik.

Create your own Friend Test hereHarap diisi yaaa!!!! Ayo donk my fans!

Awas septi kalo dapet dibawah 50%, segitu doank kah dalamnya hubungan kita?.. gue akan sakit hati dan ga bakal bangunin loe kalo loe telat kerja!

Ntar gue bakal bahas score2nya disini. Pasti banyak yg ngawur and bisa diketawain hihihi

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Septi moments

Scene: Kita lagi mengunjungi nesha yg abis dioperasi dirumah sakit. Please refer below for an intellectual talk between septi and ci mandy (nyokapnya nesha)

Ci mandy: “iya sep, nesha abis dibius ga boleh makan minum. Baru boleh kalo dia udah kentut.”
Septi: “ha? masa ci? wah mesti kentut ya?”
Ci mandy: “iya… emang begitu kalo abis dibius, harus tunggu dia sudah kentut dulu”
Septi: *dengan tampang yg concern banget* “oh gitu ci?? wah kalo gitu dia ga makan2 donk kalo ga kentut2. Kasian donk ci.”
Ci Mandy: ” ya mao ga mao harus tungguin dia kentut”
Septi: “kalo dia ga kentut2 gimana ci? Bisa dipaksa ga?”
Ci mandy: *ketawa meringis* (bokapnya si nesha yg aslinya lagi diem termenung jadi berusaha nahan ngakak)
Septi: *dengan tampang lebih concern atas kelanjutan hidup nesha*
“nah kalo misalnya dia kentut ga berbau and ga bunyi gimana donk ci, kan ga ada yang tau…”

Ci mandy and bokap nesha udah ga kuat nahan ngakaknya. hAUEhAUEhAUEHaEe, bagus lah sep, kita kalo ngunjungi orang sakit ga usah bawa oleh2 atau mainan, tinggal bawa loe aja lah, lebih mujarab kayaknya… hihihi.

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Scene: Kita mesti ketemuan ama anak2 lain di City Hall mao makan bareng. Kita janjian ketemu air mancur dideket sana. Gue kan ga begitu familiar dengan daerah2 shopping. So gue tanya septi yg emang saat itu kita lagi berdua doank.

Gue: “sep.. loe tau kan dimana tempet air mancur itu?”
Septi: “iya gue tau.. trust me lah (sidenote:bahaya kalo dia mulai pake kata2 ini, gue mulai was2).. iya air mancurnya deket sini kok.”
Gue: “ok.. beneran ya loe tau…”
Septi: “iya iya….”

Then kita jalan ampir ada 10 menit.

Gue: “sep… yakin loe? kok ga sampe2 sih?”
Septi: “entar.. entar lagi nyampe kok… sabar..”

Jalan lagi another 10 menit…

Gue: *udah mulai doubtful*
Septi: *mulai ketawa cengengesan*…

Sampai akhirnya kita nyampe….

Septi: “Nah ini kan tempetnya… tuh ada air nya..”
Gue: *bengong*..
Gue: *bengong lagi*
Gue: “sep… kita mesti ketemu di air mancur kan?…Ini mah KINCIR AIRRRRR!!!!!!! “
Septi: “ha??? salah ya??? loh kan ini air mancur bukan???”
Gue: *udah mao jedokin pala gue ke tembok*
Septi: *ketawa cengengesan*.. “ehehheheheh .. soorrry sorry… gue kirain samaaaa.. hehehhehe”

MORAL OF THE STORY: skarang kalo gue nanya septi arah jalan, and dia jawab tau and show me the way, I have learned my lesson and gue take the opposite direction.

hiihihihi.. mudah2an u guys can learn too….

PS: AND JANGAN LUPA ISI KUIS GUE DONKKKKKKKKK!!!!! kan seru bisa dibahas di blog ntar buat diketawa2in.. and gue kasih tau jawabannya ntar hohoho. Kerjasama anda sangat dibutuhkan untuk berlangsungnya kelestarian blog ini. Anda masih ingin ketawa? Anda masih ingin tetep awet muda? Maka.. ikut serta lah dalam kuis ala Nelly.
*opo seh* hAUEhUAEHuAEHuAEe

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- 7 more days

Thank you Lord for everything. I LOVE YOU.

Hard Hitting Truth

Ok, skarang gue udah selesai edit video yg kita take saat visit satu hospital for the mentally-challenged di Johor.

Pertama kali kita kesana karena we want to follow up satu cowo Nepal yg kapan ari gue ceritain di blog. Yg kepalanya dihantam beberapa kali pake kayu yg dikasih paku2 tajam, sampe retak tempurung kepalanya lah. Udah gitu distab2 lagi kepalanya. Pas kmaren2 yg gue liat di hospital, pas dia masih ga sadar itu bener2 parah la kondisinya. So this time, we heard dia udah sadar, physically dah ok. Tapi mentally belon really healed. Masih suka blur2 gitu. Jadi thats why he was being transferred to hospital yg satu ini.

Saat gue liat dia, man I was shocked. Kepalanya kayak ilang separuh gitu.

Ini masih ga seberapa sih dari belakang. Kalo dari depan lebih shocking. And he told us dia ngerasa ga pede dengan kepala seperti itu. And bisa pas banget si mbak imelda bawa topi and dia kasih tuh topi ke cowo Nepal itu. And he smiled when he wore that

Kasian man, dia dulunya itu padahal gede and besar, sekarang jadi ceking seperti itu. And I caught glimpses of him beberapa kali kayak staring blankly at the wall. His gaze was lifeless sometimes.

Then we went inside ruangan yg for children. Man, gue ga tega banget lah ngeliatnya. I could only cry and cry.. Gilee, sampe ingus kemana2 dah gue cuekkkkk. Gue ga pernah liat anak2 kecil menderita sampe seperti itu. Ya mereka mentally-challenged lah. Gue sedih bgt ngeliatnya becoz, they are so different from anak2 sunday skul yg gue ajarin, basically anak2 yg selama ini come into my life. Yg so lively, cheerful, and full of laughters. Yg ini yg gue liat, anak2 di hospital itu just laid on their crib (baby bed), doing nothing. And most of them yes, pandangan matanya so lifeless.

Ada satu anak lain, that u can see in my video (i’ll give u the link later), yg undescribable. Dia kejang aja terus kayak gitu posisinya, kepalanya nangak terus. And his pupils moved back and forth rapidly. And itu ga stop2, begitu aja terus for his whole life.

GImana ga terenyuh sih liat hal2 seperti ini? Pas disana, I really couldnt stop crying. Anak2 ini ga deserve to be like this. Bedanya jauuuuuh skali ama anak2 sunday skul gue. If only these hospital kids bisa lari2, ketawa2, maen2 tanpa beban seperti anak2 lain. .. So kita spent few moments buat doain mereka satu persatu, supaya mereka bisa kerasa kasih Tuhan yg begitu gedenya, meskipun mereka ditinggalin ama orang tuanya. Masih ada Tuhan yg menopang mereka.

Then ada satu yg namanya Tabitha, pas gue liat dia, gue juga shocked. Abis tiba2 ada something disebelah gue yg crawling. And itu serem bgt, pas gue liat ternyata si Tabitha ini. Gue ga sempet ambil video dia yg pas crawling, udah shocked duluan. Untuk lebih jelasnya kalian bisa liat video link gue dibawah nanti.

Then ada satu anak yg namanya Bun. Dia nih perlakuannya bener2 kayak monyet. No difference at all.

Itu dia diiket di ranjangnya supaya dia ga hurt himself. Abis bener2 aktif ga ketulungan. Sampe kepalanya kejedok beberapa kali kena dinding pun dia ga sadar. Terus aja loncat2.

Trus ada satu anak kecil cewe yg jadi clingy banget ama gue. Pertama kali ketemu dia, dia lagi samperin gue yg sedang sayang2 anak yg lain. Gue lagi elus2 rambutnya anak yg lifeless itu sambil bilang “sayang..sayang” gitu. Eh dia ngeliatinnn, and ikutan elus2 sambil bilang sayang sayang… so sweeetttt . And gue jadi sayang2 kepala dia juga HAUEhUAEHuAHEe. Abis gitu langsung deh dia nempeeeeelll terus ke gue, and pelukkkkk terus. Ga mao lepas. Lepas bentar pun langsung naik lagi ke gue minta digendong. Dia umurnya sekitar 8 taon lah. Very touched lah ngeliatnya. Mereka bener2 haus akan kasih sayang, sampe segitunya man.

Aduh pokoknya hard hitting banget lah disana. Emang kalo ga bener2 terjun ga bakalan tau rasanya gimana. Pas gue keluar dari tempet itu, gue cuma bisa diem for the whole journey home. I want to come back there again, but dunno kapan bisa. *sigh*. Lets see lah. April I will go to johor again, mudah2an bisa visit mereka lagi. That girl yg hugged me so tight udah stole my heart…

Yah anyway MUST WATCH MY VIDEO. Percuma baca blog gue kalo ga nonton videonya!!!

kalo bisa kasih comment and ratings ya… thx people!! Love ya!

kyaaa update and septi moments

Si wira nih maksa2 gue update blog. Padahal I dont reli have much to
say… hehehe. Tapi biasanya pun kayak gitu, I ended up nulis panjang2.
Anyway, gue besok bakal ke johor. Excited nih, dunno wats gonna happen
disana. And yg february, kita kemungkinan besar bakal ngikut pastor
Handoyo ke Aceh, buat mission trip juga. Disana bakal ada KKR gitu la.
Ya pasti ikut sih kita, apalagi si wira bela2in dari sydney dateng cuma
mo ikutan mission trip. Sip la gue ada temennya. Then maybe after
that kita ke Riau dan sekitarnya. We’ll see.

Ada sedikit update dari Anton Kyaaa. Ah idolaku… Kmaren ini tiba2 dia
msn gue and bilang "ci, ini liat deh display pic gue mirip kan???"..
Pas gue liat, ternyata pic ini..

OH MY GODDDD… dua2nya my idolsssssssssssssss. HAUEhaUEhaUEhuaeh miripppp bgtttt!!! emang lebih cakep loe ton, andy lau itu potonya pasti dah banyak di photoshop. Kalo loe kan tampang asli. Btw, that pic diatas sih gue photoshop dikit muka loe biar lebih alusan and tidak kah anda bisa melihat eye bags anda hilang?!?!? AEAHEuaEHuAEHuaHEe.

Anyway, kmaren ini si Zeno cerita. Pas mereka di indo, mereka kan pegi2 ama anton and ndoko. Ga tau ini either ndoko atau anton yg bilang, pokoknya jalan ceritanya kayak gini:

Scene: Anton/Ndoko lagi iklan handphone
Anton/Ndoko: "Liat nih hp ini hp canggih. Bisa bikin mie goreng!!"
Anak2: "Ha.. gimana?"
Anton/Ndoko: *pura2 nelpon and ngomong ditelp* "Mbak, mbak, tolong masakin mie goreng ya?"

HAEUhaUEhuaEhuaEHuaEHuAE. I miss you a lot guys!!!

Oh ya kapan ari, dah lamaaaa bgt pas pertama kali masih heboh2nya KYAAA family alias baru didirikan, we took family picture. Gue dan my kyaaas. hehehhhe

I reli look like oma2 here hAUEhuAEHuAHEea. From left to right, Lukas Kyaaa, Anton Kyaaa, Robert Kyaaa. Beneran kayak family potrait ye?? HAEuhAUEhAUEHe.

Hmm mo nulis apa lagi… cerita soal septi moment aja deh.

Scene: pas itu kita lagi makan dinner di rumah ko harry. Tanpa ko harry dan keluarga hAUEhuAHEuAE. Jadi ini ceritanya si tony disuruh ko harry jagain rumahnya selama seminggu abis mereka sekeluarga pada pegi liburan ke swiss. Jadi on that week, si tony jadi tuan rumah disitu. Ada pembantu tiga lagi. Tiap hari dimasakin. And si tony bagi2 berkat ngajakin kita makan malem disana, skalian gue demen bgt kerumah ko harry soalnya binatang piaraannya buanyakkkkk. Ada anjing herder satu, kucing dua, ikan koi keren2 gede2 mahal2 30 biji ada kali, hamster buanyak abt 12 biji, frogs 3, rabbits 2. Wah pokoknya bagaikan surga buatku AHEuhaUEHAUE. Ya gitu lucunya si mbak2 pembantunya kalo manggil tony "mas tony, mas tony… makanannya sudah siap…" HAUEhAUEhuAEhuAEHuaEe… gile bener. Pas itu kita hepi sih kecipratan berkat dimasakin masakan enak bgt lagi, bener2 family style, makan dimeja makan gede, disediain beberapa macem dishes, disediain buah, disediain dessert. Wah bgt lah. Si tony senyum2 aja terus dipanggil mas.. AEHuAHEuAHEuhAEe. Tuan rumah untuk sementara siaaa

Btw rumah ko harry keren bgt. Ada liftnya sgala. 4 lantai lah, and modelnya yg berliku2 dan banyak pintu gitu rumahnya. Rada2 Bali style. Pernah masuk Channel News Asia as one of the best designed house. Gile bener. hehehe. He inherited it from Godpa nya.

Yah anyway ini lagi mo ceritain septi kok HAUEhAUEHuAHE. Iya pas itu kita kan lagi dijemput tony pake mobil ko harry buat makan dirumahnya. Then si septi tiba2 sms "wah nel, kalian makan di rumah ko harry ya? yah gue ga diajak..".. then gue baru inget ama septi HAEuhAUEhAUEHuAEhe, padahal satu rumah man HAUEhaUEhuaEe. , ya gara2 si septi kan ada temen dia dirumah gitu loooo.

Then pas kita makan di meja makan itu, ada si davin, tony, budi, gue and lukas. And kita iseng mo ngerjain septi.  Si davin tuh yg mulai.. tiba2 dia bilang, eh ngisengin septi yok… di video call bisa ga ya, biar bikin dia ngiri.. HAUEhuAEHuAEe. Call pake 3G gitu, kan kalo subscribe 3G bisa pake video call, and si Davin hpnya bisa 3G, cuma ga tau caranya aja. Then ya udah dia nelpon septi..

Davin: "sep, sep, gue mo nanya nih. Loe tau ga caranya video call?"
Septi: "oh gue tau… 3G kan??? iya gue tau banget. Gini caranya.. loe ke video then bla bla bla"
Davin: "oh gituuuu. ok, gue coba ya. Gue coba telpon loe pake video call ya, loe angkat ok???"
Septi: "ok, gue tunggu nih skarang"

Davin pun hang the phone and coba2 menurut cara septi. Tapi dicoba beberapa kali ga bisa. Then dia telpon lagi ke septi.

Davin: "Sep, kok gue coba2 terus ga bisa sih. Bener kan stepnya itu ke video then bla bla bla?"
Septi: "iya bener kok gitu. Bener bgt, gue tau kok…Hmm, kok ga bisa ya? Mestinya sih bisa, kan ada 3G. Gini deh, coba gue deh yg video call loe. "
Davin: "ok… skarang ya.."

Then rada lamaan gitu, kita nungguin septi video call tapi ga nelpon2. Si septi akhirnya nelpon, tapi bukan video call alias telp biasa.

Davin: "gimana sep?? kok ga bisa??"
Septi: " Hmm, vin… loe ada subscribe ke 3G kan???"
Davin: "iya gue ada.."
Septi: "oooohhhh… iya ….. hmm.. gue sih ga ada…. "

AHEuhAUEhAUEHUAEHuAEHuAEHuAHEuAHEuAHEuAHEe. udah deh parah tuh anak.. bener2… ya begitulah septi kita, tak ada duanya. We looooove u sep.

Ada satu lagi septi moment yg perlu diabadikan. Pas itu kita lagi cerita2 soal keidupan gue dulu lah.
Gue: "iya, pas itu gile gue krasa badan gue ga bisa gerak. Gemeteran terus ga bisa diem. Gue takut bgt, kirain bakalan mati overdose"
Septi: "loh, gue kok ga tau cerita loe yg itu nell??? trus gimana??? trus loe mati??"

AHEuHAEUhAUEhUAEHuAEHuAEHuAEHuAEH OMG!!!!!!!!!!! Si dimas pas denger itu cuma bisa ngakak geleng2 kpala. Dia kan sebelonnya ga kenal septi. Sampe dia bisa komentar dengan accent bandungnya yg kentel "aduh ini anak tehh… bisa ya ada anak kayak gini… telat bgt… AHEUhAUEhUAEhuAE".. Then kalo dimas ketemu gue gitu, kalo nanyain ttg septi, dimas ga inget namanya, slalu nanyanya gini "gimana tuh kabar si sapa tuh, yg kecil2 telmi?" HAEhuaEHuAEHuAHEe. But we love u loh seeppppppp… *muach* huaEhuaEHuAEHe. Septi tak ada duanya, bikin gue ketawa ngakak terus… keep it up yah. Rumah kita sepi lagi ga ada loenya.. HAUEhuAEhuAEe.

Gue jadi inget pas waktu Kyaaa family was formed, dia malah ngusulin diri, "wah nel, gue ikutan donk masuk Kyaaa family, jadi pembantu aja ga papa." Then dia panggil2 si lukas "Tuan" gitu. Sampe bawain tasnya lukas "Tuan, mao dibawain tasnya?" and beneran dibawain sampe lama.. and u know lukas lah, tegaan orangnya HAUEhAUEHuAEe.

ah i had a gud laugh…